Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have been going through so many transitions in my work life, school and personal life. Its actually been a bit overwhelming. I'll explain more soon. I realized that my memory is starting to fade of all the tidbits so I am going to write it down so that Kiara could read about it later on in her life....
I have been going through this huge transition. I'm trying to discover who I am and what my purpose is. God/Universe has had plenty of opportunities to take me out and hasn't.
It was the first actual cold day of 2022. It was super slow at work. But I wasn't upset. It was a smooth flow and relaxing. I shared tips and made enough. I stayed after work (I'm a bartender now) and spoke to a co-worker. I'm leaving her name out of the entry for her sake. She complemented me on my job well done. She apologized for being rude to me at times. We were the last ones there. We sat at the bar and started talking. She said that she remembers when I first went there with a "regular customer". She knew that that wasn't the last time she was going to see me. I didn't realize anyone remembered me then. It was about 2 years ago!
She said that she thinks that I am a great person that is sweet with a really really big heart. She said that people fall in love with my Corazon not my face. This made me laugh. She said, "You're really pretty and you have a beautiful smile but your eyes are filled with sadness. I saw it the first time and I still see it. It's not as much as before. I know you want a relationship and marriage, but this guy is not for you. He only loves you when you're around him and on the weekends and date night. When you aren't with him he doesn't think of you, he doesn't love you, and is not the one for you. You're energy doesn't match his. You love him, I see it when you talk about him. He doesn't love you like he is supposed to love you. You are ready for your awakening, you're holding on to something that is not serving you. You need to release it. Don't break up with the boyfriend, he will fade away and that's ok."
She told me that she knows that I know this already. Regarding my daughter who is my true pain, she said that she is learning an important lesson and I shouldn't concern myself with it anymore. I need to let go and forgive the people that did this to me. I actually don't even think of them anymore. She will always be my little girl and she will return after her lesson.
She gave me instructions on what to do for seven days. I'll begin on Monday.
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